So on 14th December, I played in an under 55 average tournament. The tournament had a larger field than my Wednesday Under 55 tournament, and the entry fee was higher, which lead to larger prize money.
The tournament was split in 4 groups of 7, with the top 4 in each group progressing to the last 16.
I felt comfortable warming up and have kept my new relaxed, and slightly quicker style. First two games, I won with relative ease. I was hitting straight and scoring well. Doubles weren't too bad either. Then I had to play one of the favourites.
I have no idea why it happens, but I then started to think. Rather than just throw, my mind became cloudy. It was as though I was telling myself I couldn't win. Thing is, anyone can beat anyone at this level. I've beaten better players than him, but also lost to worse players. I should have just played my game, but my silly brain was having none it. Ok, I still had the comfort of winning my first 2 games, but didn't need the doubt entering. Second game was the same. I should have coped easily, but I started thinking and the trebles dried up. I lost that match too, and dropped down the group table. Next game I did win, thanks to my opponent not being at their best. Results elsewhere all went against me, which meant i had to win my last game to progress. I could either finish 2nd in the group or 6th, such was the tight nature of our group.
Knowing this, I felt nervous before I even started. I needed to play how I did in the first two games, but I was just getting more agitated as I wasn't hitting the scores I wanted. To be fair, my opponent played well, but a game I know, deep down, I should be winning. I went out, finishing 6th on 6pts - the same points as the player that finished 2nd. It's a cruel game at times, but I need to fix myself quick.
This week I will keep trying to shake the nerves. Will research more online and see what techniques I can pick up. It's so frustrating, as my game is going ok and practise at home is good ,but my mind switches on as soon as I start a competitive match. This is the part I need to sort out. There shouldn't be nerves at this level, more a case of enjoying the game. However, I need to keep telling myself that until it settles in. I really hope is does settle, and soon!
Saturday 14th Stats: Average 48.68 First 9: 52.98 100+ 9: 140+ 3: 180 0
